Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Bringing Sexy Back...

Yeah, I need to do that. We have been married for about 3 1/2 years. And while we have an amazing relationship and wonderful marriage, I have gotten comfortable with....everything. I have gained 15 pounds in this time. It does not sound like much, but I'm 5'2"; it's noticeable to say the least.

Everything started when I was in grad school. It was my second masters degree. I had just gotten married, moved to a tiny town, and started a new program that was not a good fit for me. So I ate. A lot. Especially a lot of fast food. Chic-Fil-A could make all of my problems go away, right?

I started to get better with my old job, but then we moved to our current town. We're still getting adjusted to living here. We have more food options here. More unhealthy options that is. So, we go out way more than I would like. Coke, regular Coca-Cola not diet, has also become a good friend of mine. It helps me adjust to life.

See a pattern? I have some anxiety issues with change and need healthier coping mechanisms.

The other major issue that I have is that we're starting to discuss children in the future. Women on my mom's side of the family tend to not lose baby weight. I don't want to continue this.

Where am I going with all of this? It's simple: I need to get healthy. Not so much for the weight, more for the health benefits. My family has some crazy, chronic illnesses that I'd like to combat. I want to be around to see my children and grand children grow up.

Don't get me wrong, the weight is also another reason. Just more of an added bonus. I do want to look good for my husband. He works really hard to provide for me, and I feel like looking good will help our relationship. I will feel more confident and worthy of his attention, so I'll be more willing to accept the love that he gives to me.